sincerly ,
Syahira Nasaruddin
Do i miss him ?
There's a lot of things I miss everyday it's something new . Today I miss the way my head fit on your shoulder and the comfort of your fingers around my waist . But there's more that I miss when I stop and think and know that I do avoid this when i'm not feeling strong . But right now it's okay but not for long . I miss the color of your eyes even though I can see them when I shut mine . I miss our talks and the fact I never lied . I miss laughing so hard I fell on you . I miss kissing you but I remember it felt like love . I miss being able to miss you when you were away . I miss your texts that were just to say hey . I miss staying up all night and talking about everything . I miss your voice and the way it gave me everything . I miss your hair how soft it felt when I ran my fingers over it . I miss laying my head on your lapand having you trace your fingers on my face . I miss your obsession with fixing my hair and sometimes I still mess it up and wait . I miss our moments and I still want to see your drawings . I miss hearing about your day even though after you left you said it was awful . I miss trying to think of ways to make it better even when you suddenly didn't want me to . I miss you drawing on my hand and pen drawn smiley face on your pants knee . I miss the room where we sat alone and I wonder if our names are still on the table . I miss the comfort of being myself and how I didn't need to dress up to impress you . I miss when you touched your forehead to mine and told me you loved me . I miss that boy . I knew the one who was everything I need I miss him so much but he broke me over and over. He left me , though he can argue . I left him wanted a different life style became something he once hatedand . now he's fine perfectly fine and I'm still broken but I can't regret loving him because he's everything . I need maybe I fell too fast maybe I gave too much maybe I should never have given up but I did because he pushed me away what could I say when he took his world from me . I said I'd always love you , goodbye, good luck . What I meant to say was please don't let this end please come home don't do this . I need you I love you I miss you so much please . But I didn't because I couldn't . And it's over . And I will probably never see that smile again . And I'm sorry, but yes, I'm crying.
